30 Weeks and fully showered with love

I didn't totally fall of the face of the earth more like I have fallen on my butt and I can't find the energy to get up. I feel like I am literally running on empty. I am so happy to hit the 30 week mark and my motherly instinct has me thinking not much longer now.

My sister-in-law threw me a Vermont shower two weeks ago and I had my Mass home shower last weekend, which was hosted by my mom and sister. I had so much fun at both and was beyond floored by the generosity of gifts. It was so great to see all my friends and relatives, many of whom I haven’t seen since my wedding in October of 2008! As usual my family out did themselves and I feel so blessed and lucky.


My house is packed full of presents and there is more plastic in my downstairs then in Hollywood. I can't wait for the final touches on the nursery so I can find a home for all the stuff.


Here are some pics!

My hometown lady loves

College Sorority Sisters

We got the macdaddy stroller! I totally cried

The amazing diaper cake made by my crafty sister. I had no idea that it was all diapers!

My Vermont Shower

The awesome elephant cookies made by my SIL.

We had our 30 week growth scan and I am trying to remain optimistic that Baby A will make up the discordance asap. Baby B is currently 3lbs 3oz and Baby A is 2lbs 14oz. I am now going in every week and will start the non-stress testing and biophysical testing next week. More to come.......

Nothing like the good ole stomach flu

I totally jinxed myself about having a story book last couple of weeks. As soon as my sister, niece, nephews and friends left last weekend, I began a nasty bout of the stomach flu. By Sunday morning I still couldn't keep anything down. We decided in the early afternoon it was better to be safe than sorry and headed to the Labor and Delivery. Turns out I was severely dehydrated, contracting quite a bit and a tad dilated at .5 cm. I had yet another fFN, thankfully negative, was pumped full of fluids and monitored for several hours. It is a really scary experience when you feel that awful and have no idea how it is affecting your babies. Luckily they are just fine, but my body has taken quite the hit.

I had my normal follow up appointment yesterday and am measuring in at 31 weeks. So about 3 weeks ahead of a singleton. I feel huge so that makes sense. In two weeks I have our next growth scan and am very anxious to see how much bigger the boys are getting. Of course they have decided to move yet again and are now both in an "awkward transverse breech position" as so qouted by the ultrasonographer. Hopefully they will do yet another 360 before their arrival, but they are pretty cramped in there and running out of room. My stomach gets all contorted and alienesque when they move. It is quite the sight. Crazy to think that they could be here as early as the next 7 weeks!

26 Weeks

Today I am 26 weeks. 6.5 months, WOW!! It really is going by fast. According to Baby Center my two dudes are the size of English hothouse cucumbers. Um yeah, I had no idea what those were either, but just picture a cucumber about 14 inches long. I don't really like referring to my children as fruits or vegetables but I am glad that they are progressing onto bigger produce comparability.

I had another growth scan on Monday. The Princes are 2 lbs each and very active. Both babes are no longer transverse. Baby B is now head down and closest to my cervix, while Baby A is breech.

The Braxton Hicks contractions have been pretty intense at night so I was given an fFN test. Again the test was negative and my cervix is still long and closed. Definitely different being on the other side of what I sell for a living. The reassurance is so uplifting!

Looking forward to a nice long weekend. Nesting is in full effect!!!

Soon To Be my Third Arm

No! that is not me with two strangers children, but yes I did just buy this. After being convinced by three friends with twins and several positive reviews I went ahead and bought the "EZ-2-Nurse Twins Pillow". It is like an oversized boppy, but more square with a back support and two spots for the babes.  


At first I was scared, actually I was petrified. The idea of tandem breast feeding makes my boobs hurt already. I have no expectactions other than I really want to try to breast feed both of my boys. It is important to me, but I am also realistic that it may be beyond difficult at times. I hope to follow the advice of fellow bloggers and friends that have gotten their twins on the same eating schedule, yes it is possible they say.

Perhaps if I can master the art, I can be hands free, do an infomercial and feed my two dudes all at once, just like this lady below. Hey if it makes one of the hardest things, but one of the most important things easier, I am all for it!!

Our two dudes in 3D

I can't believe it has been almost three weeks since my last post. I have surpassed the 24 week milestone for viability. I feel a sense of relief. There is something to be said when your physician tells you your children’s chance of survival increases exponentially from here on out.

Looks like if I make it to 38 weeks I will be induced. I am hopeful of a natural birth but have a second and third birth plan in place, just in case our two princes decide that head down is not their idea of a way out. Scary to some, but I am not one for scheduled caesareans unless for good reason.


I have the monthly growth scan next Monday and am really anxious to see how big they are getting. I feel pretty good; my energy comes in crazy bursts. For instance after dinner on Sunday I decided to mop the floors until 12:30am. Then on Monday I cried all day. The heartburn still keeps me up at night but I have resorted to Pepcid AC. I am also not as ravenous as I have been in the past, in fact a few times I have had to remind myself to eat something. I say that and then tomorrow I will be a bottomless pit.


The nursery is coming along awesome, carpet removed and bead board up, now onto painting and wood flooring. I am heading to my hometown for the weekend with the hope that my amazing husband finishes quite a bit before my return.


On a side note I wish someone would put together a Twins for Dummies manual. It amazes me how little people know about a twin pregnancy. There is a whole different set of rules, please don't pretend you even know what you are talking about. Sorry, my first vent in all my blogging, but maybe I will draft up a brochure to have on hand when the questions/comments are being vomited all over me. I have no time to explain people. Oh and I am tired.

We were able to see our two dudes on 3D ultrasound and while emotional and beautiful it was also kind of sci-fi. Nothing like seeing your unborn children's faces. The U/S tech had some extra time to kill and just started to play around with the 3D/4D scanner. I guess 26-28 weeks is a better time to view them since they are likely to be a bit chubbier. I swear they have my husband’s nice full lips and well my family’s nice big head.


Here are some pics of our snuggly bugs. The eye socket thing creeps me out but I did see their eyes in the 4D video. The still portion of 3D adds to the alien effect, just a heads up for those anxious to get some pictures.

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 





I love the one of Baby B curled up, knee to chin. Baby A was camera shy that day :)


I already love these little guys so much!

Bedding, bumbos, boppys, bottles, bibs OH MY!

I have officially crossed over to baby buying bonkerdome. I can't stop. It is physically impossible for me not to check www.greenbabybargains.com/ or www.babysteals.com/ everyday. It used to be that I anxiously waited each morning for the Gilt Groupe or Hautelook sales to begin; now I can't live with the thought of my children without the adorably fantastic 100% organic alpaca onesie. I need help. There is a magnetic force and it has become my latest crack.

So my beautiful baby boys bedding has arrived. Now say that five times fast! I just love love love love it. I waited for some after Christmas sales at Layla Grace and it felt like X-mas morning all over again when it arrived on my front porch. I did a mock set up and made sure everything looked perfect. I can't wait for the nursery to be finished! The colors are a great nautical mix of blue and yellow in a seersucker print with mosaic sheets. Kind of hippy meets preppy WASP is the best way I can describe it.

Next I need to find a chaise lounge or glider but I am yet to find one I like, then I am done. On the good side I know better than to go too crazy (if that is possible) before my shower. I just have to have some of these outfits and sleepers and shoes and hats. Sometimes they actually make me cry and I find myself smelling the clothes oblivious to the sales person gaze.

When I was first married, Andy begged me to be practical...thank God I lived by my credo: 'Veni, Vidi, Visa - I came, I saw, I charged it. Hope everyone had a great weekend :)

21 weeks and growing and growing and growing....

I was talking with my friend Nikki last night and she asked me how big I was getting. It dawned on me that I literally woke up one morning and needed help getting out of bed. Being vertically challenged my legs dangle off the bed when trying to ground them, so either I need the help of my husband or I slither off my bed on my back using my hands as a lowering device. The mattress is higher than I thought.

Oh and I have horrific heart burn already. I never knew how bad that can actually feel. I also have finally succumbed to throwing away all the old, yes um old and used pregnancy tests. I was neurotic, I am still neurotic.  Honestly there was something about seeing those lines get darker and darker each day. I put the dates and times on them and I had no intention of every throwing them away. My husband told me it was best and that saving the biohazard bin with all the needles was worse. Sorry I am not ready to throw those away just yet.

Welcome to my world.

Cheers to 2010!

What a year it has been. I still can't believe that it has been 12 months since we began our journey. It seems like yesterday, but we are hopeful that the painful, heartbreaking and trying period is behind us. I thank all you wonderful women who have supported and shared with me over the last several months. I know many of you are still struggling or have experienced yet another loss. How you remain positive and strong is often beyond me.

I feel blessed to be in my position and my heart and hopes go out to everyone who is still in the shoes I once possessed. I will always cherish the friendships and words of wisdom from everyone who has touched my life through this process. So without crying more than I already do lately, Cheers to a healthy, successful, baby filled 2010!

There is 2 feet of snow up here in VT, so I spent the majority of the weekend nesting and cleaning like crazy. I still tire very easily and get some interesting nudges and growing pains, but for the most part still feel pretty good for 5 months with twins.


NYE was tame and spent with my brother and sister in-law. We enjoyed a nice dinner and were home by 11:50pm. I was out cold by 12:10am! I guess I should enjoy my sleep while I can:)

**Here our 11 year old husky gets comfortable in our front yard. She is totally in her element. At least I get out of shoveling!

Home for the holidays :)

I can't believe Christmas has come and gone. I also can't believe that next Christmas we will have two elves of our own to celebrate with. My hubby and I ventured to UPS New York to visit his family and then headed to Massachusetts to spend Christmas with mine. Even though 5 hours in the car is not that much fun I am glad we were able to do both, next year will be a different story.

 Santa was good to us as usual. Lots of baby things and gift certificates. I got some adorable outfits from my sister and I cried when I opened them. I am trying to push myself to finish off registering. People have told me it is a lot of fun and while I would have to agree, I am amazed by the amount of time I have spent reviewing products and reaching out to friends with children for advice. It took me longer to pick out car seats then it did a new car. I guess the nesting feeling has already set in! I now have a subscription to Consumer Reports and love the website http://www.babybargains.com/, they give great reviews on products from parents.

Our level 2 scan was very reassuring and I feel so relieved to be able to spend the holidays with a clearer head. I will be monitored more closely now with another U/S in 3 weeks and then continued ones every 2 weeks until their birth. I can't believe I am over half way there (by twin standards) My docs are hesitant to give me a revised due date but if our two dudes can hold out until 37 weeks I will be one happy momma. That gets me to mid April.

The weight has picked up so that is a good thing. As hard as I was trying to consume healthy calories I wasn't gaining weight. I went three weeks without gaining a pound. I am happy to say that I have since made up for lost time. The holidays definitely helped. My docs were about to put me on a high fat diet with shakes, um no thanks! The last thing I want is to be put on bed rest popping bon bons. So thank you holiday cookie people and friends with no calorie conscious for making me rounder.



I finally got around to posting a picture of my belly. I am now 19 weeks. I think I have gotten bigger just from last week when this was taken!

Is it Friday yet??

Friday morning I am having the Level 2 u/s, one day after my 18th week. I have been having an extreme amount of anxiety since some abnormal AFP results. Despite the fact that I was reassured with a quick U/S to see heartbeats and moving up my Level 2, I just need to hear and see that everything looks great from head to toe. If we decide to go for a third child we will definitely be opting out of some prenatal tests. With less validity in twins for some of the screens, it seems the unnecessary worry before a more thorough U/S is not worth it to me.

I have been beside myself and I am happy to say that having my very own Buddy the Elf has cheered me up. If only Wednesday was the day before Friday.

So anyway my husband and I are heading to a holiday party on Friday night. I decided last week that I was going to dress him up as an Elf. Why you ask??, well for one we have a pretty funny group of friends and I want to one up everyone this year with an Elf onesie worn by my husband, 2) since I can't indulge in the normal spiked eggnog atmosphere, I figured having something else that can make me laugh is only appropriate.

I can't even begin to tell you how hard I am cracking up right now! He looks so miserable but it fits perfect, I just want to squeeze him. Figured I would share for all those that wish it was already Friday, here is your Happy Hump Day pick me up.

Our two dudes have made their debut!

We found out last week that we are having two little PRINCES!!!. I am so overwhelmed with joy and excitement. I felt like I had some motherly instinct that they were boys so I couldn't be happier. My husband had tears in his eyes during the U/S and it was a very special moment for us. We were trying to hold out on telling people until the holidays but I have never been one to hide my excitement so we caved to family and friends.

I finally got around to washing all the boy clothes my sister gave me from my two nephews! My living room was packed with clothes. I have so much stuff already.

One more crib to put together and we can focus on the nursery. I am now 17 weeks! I can't believe I am already past 4 months. Still seems like yesterday that I was getting my gallbladder removed and having my transfer. Now if only we can fast forward the next 5 months.

Fat and Happy :) 15 Weeks

I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving. I began my 15th week on Thursday and what a better way to celebrate then to eat for three! My family knows me all to well and my cousin bought me a mocktini book for making virgin drinks! She even got me alcohol free champagne. Honestly this book is great. Not only does it help you pretend to fit in while everyone else gets drunk, but it has recipes for great juice concoctions for nausea and stomach upset. I love it, thanks Hallie!

My husband and I were supposed to bear the wrath of Black Friday but my raging hormones and severe lack of patience has me scanning the internet for deals instead. Let me tell you there are deals to be had! The cribs and changers I have had my eye on at Overstock.com are almost 40% off with all the coupons. The cribs are convertible so they can be transformed into toddler and twin beds as the babes get older. Drop cribs have always reminded me of a guillotine. I saw the same Davinci crib at a retail store in Burlington VT for $500! We paid less than that for two. Can't wait to lie on the couch and watch my husband put them all together :)

Making a list and checking it one thousand zillion times.......

I have had a hard time keeping up with the blogging lately. Most of the nauz has dissipated but the tiredness is still pretty bad. I am a few days shy of my 15th week and getting more and more Santa Claus like every day.

I have spent way too much time researching strollers and car seats. We have decided that the Bumbleride Indie Twin is the way to go. A friend just had twins and I was so excited when I saw a pic of him pushing his twins in the same stroller I have been salivating over. He swears by this mack daddy. I don't think I need to read another review, we are sold.

I have also compiled a list of my favorite websites for baby gear, cribs, clothes, bedding, deals and steals.

www.albeebaby.com

Great deals on all sorts of baby stuff

www.babybedding.com
You can essentially design a virtual nursery. Also have crib skirts, bedding, bumpers and tons of great fabrics and colors.

 www.theultimategreenstore.com
for the eco-conscious shopper

http://www.babysteals.com/
I have to thank my mommy friend Kelly for turning me onto this site. Every day they have a deal on great baby products. Think Aden and Anais baby blankets for half price. Have to get on it early as items sell out super fast.

These are just a few of my favorite sites. I am yet to really buy anything though. I am just making lots of lists. We have picked out the wood flooring for the nursery. I have a promise from my Hubby that construction will begin right after the New Year.

Next week we have another US and MFM appt. I can't wait to get another clean bill of health for the babes. Hope everyone has a wonderful and safe Turkey Day. I can't wait to see all 20+ of my rellies. Tday is always full of laughs and often tears:)

TWINS!!!

I have been holding out until the NT scan to share the exciting news that we are expecting TWINS! We could not be happier or more excited. Both babes are growing wonderfully and are exactly the same size. The scan shows a very low risk for chromosomal abnormalities. Things are progressing just as they should be. Hopefully we will know the sexes at our next U/S as well.

I am still suffering from extreme nausea and finally cried uncle to my docs, nothing else was working. I am now taking Zofran in order to make it through the morning, afternoon and night. Hopefully it will pass soon. With double the hormones comes double the trouble of being sick. My body is changing daily and even though my waist is gone and I resemble Sponge Bob Squarepants, I am so happy that our babes are doing well!

Here is our latest scan. Looks like sibling rivarly has already begun, one munchkin is kicking the other :)

My H1N1 shot

Like most pregnant women I was extremely hesitant to get the H1N1 shot. I don't care how much literature and studies are out there about the effectiveness of the vaccine. Bottom line there are no completed studies on the perinatal outcomes of H1N1 vaccinated women. However studies do show that pregnant women who get vaccinated for the normal flu strain have less likelihood of getting the flu and ultimately so will their unborn child. It makes sense to go with the majority on statistics. So while I had my reservations I did extensive research and asked lots of questions. Ultimately I feel confident in my decision.

Like the flu shot, I wanted to make sure I was getting a thimerosal, preservative and mercury free dose of the H1N1. While the levels of such substances are low you never can be safe enough. I called my OB ahead of time to make sure they had some of the single dose preservative free vaccines. I was told I would just have to ask for it once I arrived. If only it was that easy. Apparently, well at least in VT, there is a shortage of the preservative free doses. While I was told on the phone there was plenty in stock it sure didn't appear that way when I asked. The nurse, whom I don't routinely see, told me they were holding those doses for women at a high risk or those who were allergic to the other doses. Hello!! Read my chart! I am high risk and um yeah, how do I know my unborn child isn't allergic? Aren't pregnant women and children deemed those most at risk for H1N1 to begin with thus identifying them as high risk? yeah nice try. Despite her efforts in telling me someone misinformed me, I stuck to my guns and very nicely said "either you give me the preservative free version or I will find someone who will." I also told her to go find my doctor for clearance, 5 minutes later I was given what I wanted with a sore arm to boot.

I wanted to tell this story because I get the impression, that while they may be low on these doses, they aren't expecting pregnant women to ask for them and frankly they don't want you too. Money, mass production and productivity all come into play instead. Be sure to educate yourself and be adamant about what you want. If I have learned one thing so far from being pregnant it is to listen to instincts, your body and remember you are the voice for your unborn child.

It all worked out in the end but it left me wondering how many other women who have no idea of this potentially safer version of the H1N1 vaccine are out there. Push for it or go somewhere else. Anyone have a similar story? for or against the vaccine? I don't need horror stories but am interested in others experience or opinion.

http://www.cdc.gov/h1n1flu/vaccination/pregnant_qa.htm

Countdown to 2nd Trimester is on!

I feel like my last few posts have been riddled with complaints, so it is only normal to start this post off doing just that. I feel like crap. I am a walking zombie. I eat way to much bread. I can't seem to get enough sleep. BUT! I am almost into the second trimester and I couldn't be happier about that. So I am sucking it up and pushing on with my pops, ginger ale and loaf of bread.

We met with our HR OB group on Monday and were very pleased. My doc and group are pretty direct, don't sugar coat and will tell you how it really is. The head doc answered all 35+ questions I had, none of which she made me feel were outlandish. We covered everything from birth options to H1N1 and everything in between. I am really looking forward to being under their care. I was even given a mask in the event I sit next to a germ thrower on the plane. Now if only they could tell me which organic bedding is the best and what I am having so I can get on decorating!

We had another ultrasound and everything looks wonderful. Every time we have to wait for the next U/S seems like an eternity. I am so relieved to see that things are progressing as should be. I have to travel for work next week so I won't have the NT scan until November 10th. Hopefully by then the nauz and tiredness will be replaced with a feeling of rebirth, ha. Maybe I will even grow back the few million brain cells I have lost.

My husband and I celebrated our one year anniversary last Sunday as well. We went back to our ceremony and reception site, took pics and reminisced. It still seems like yesterday and so much has happened in a year. We are truly blessed. After dinner we ate what was remaining of our cake and talked for the thousandth time about baby names. I am so excited!

October 18, 2008




October 18, 2009

I did a very very bad thing!!!

I just couldn't hold off any longer. The baby made me do it. I ate the cake. Not all the cake but a lot of the cake. I was supposed to wait until this weekend to ring in my one year anniversary but I caved. It was just screaming, "EAT ME". So I did. Now I know some of you are going to tell me I am going to get divorced or lose a finger or have bad luck for 12 years but I don't care! It was delicious and wonderful and I felt so much better after I ate it.

I was hesitant after freezing it for a year but once it thawed out it tasted as delicious as our wedding day. See my husband actually picked the cake, designed the cake, described what he wanted in it and it was his masterpiece. I never have been a huge sweets person. I have had a change of taste and I would of ate the whole top, a big top mind you.That whole top in the picture for crying out loud. However this little subconscious voice told me my husband is going to kill me if I don't put down the fork. So the once beautiful wedding cake top is now a mutilated mess in my fridge. A still edible mutilated mess though.

I could not of cared less about the cake back then but I sure am glad my husband's taste buds were dead on. I mean what could be better than a Vanilla Chiffon cake layered with maple cream and apples and pears when you are preggers. Delish!! I want more right now. One piece of advice to a future bride, go organic on the cake, it pays to have it taste the same as it did a year ago even if I do end up in marriage counseling.

Graduating with Honors and Nausea

I have had all intentions of posting over the last 8 days but my morning sickness has progressed to all day sickness and believe it or not typing of all things gives me the spins. I usually update first thing in the morning, like at 6am since sleep is not something I know very well these days. However it looks like before bed is what may work for now.

I totally jinxed myself. I felt blessed to have little nausea and vomiting at 8 weeks and then poof a big dark cloud of throw up landed on me and I have been sick sick sick ever since. I swear I have vertigo, even driving makes me queasy and I am dumb. I mean really dumb. Word retrieval problems, remembering issues. I can hardly speak English. I have decided that I may just bring it back to kindergarten and just point when trying to reference something.

Work has been tough as well. I travel a lot and I have been spending equal time in rest areas as I have in doc offices doing calls. There is an advantage here though. I work in OB sales and nurses and docs have a hidden radar, they just know when you are pregnant. I mean a doc even gave me his chair in his office, maybe because I was semi-kermit like but I will take it!. Anyway it has been rough and I have been trying really hard not to complain but I just hope and pray it is over soon. I feel like a zombie and Halloween is still three weeks away. I think.

So on a brighter note, I graduated from the IVF group. I had my last U/S with them last Wednesday. It was a bittersweet goodbye and I cried when thanking my two wonderful RE's. I just can't say enough about the care and expertise they showed. They are miracle workers and I love them. I don't ever want to see them again, but I love them nonetheless.

All looks great in the womb and heartbeat is around 150-155. Soon I will scan in the images. My husband and I meet with our HR OB group next Monday and I am super excited. I personally know two of the docs in the group through work and feel lucky to be under the care of one of the Associate Professors of OB at the University. We will actually be meeting with all 4 docs that evening and will be discussing my care going forward. I am hopeful another U/S is planned but it may be put off a week or two before some of the 1st trimester screens are done.

Last weekend we planned to head to Bar Harbor, ME but the 6 hours in the car definitely turned me off once I started feeling so sick. Instead we spent the weekend in Quechee and Woodstock, VT . We had a blast. I was able to hit up my favorite bath and soap store, Thistle and have breakfast at the to die for diner Lou's in Hanover, NH. Definitely worth the wait. We also started some Christmas shopping and hit up the local antique fairs. All in all a great weekend. This coming weekend is our 1st anniversary. I already took the cake top out of the freezer and put it in the fridge with the hopes of it defrosting by Sunday. I also put my keys in the fridge yesterday as well. I already want a piece so bad; of the cake not the metal.

Me and my first baby, Kalib, hiking in Woodstock, VT

If I only had a brain......

So I am officially losing my mind. While I have been told baby brain is a common symptom of pregnancy I wasn't really prepared for the all out forgetfulness and the full on inability to complete a normal sentence. It all started off pretty harmless, calling people the wrong names, forgetting what I was about to do, calling people the wrong names.

However I brought it to a whole new level on Monday. I was driving to Bedford, NH from Western Mass for a conference. I noticed I was pretty low on gas and I really needed to stop for a fill up. I pulled into a rest area and chose a gas lane that just so happened to have a broken credit card reader. The weird woman of OZ shouted over the speaker to come in and pay first. After I paid and got back in my car, I decided to drive away. I forgot to pump the gas!! Now I am back on the Mass Turnpike about to run out of fuel and I can't exactly pull a u-turn. I had to drive 12 miles to the next exit and turn completely around. A half hour later I was back where I started. Needless to say I had an even harder time explaining to the now new gas clerk what the heck I had just done. I wasn't sure if I should laugh, cry or scream. I did all three.

Since then I have limited my conversations and social interactions. It is only safe. I am just kidding, but really these new symptoms have come out of nowhere. I am definitely feeling the nausea throughout the entire day, but I can't complain. It isn't like I invented that symptom. My husband thinks I am getting a little belly as well. I have to agree. I am pretty petite to begin with at 5'4 so I am not surprised that things are already growing outward a bit.

Next week we have the 8 week ultrasound and a potential graduation from the RE. We are also meeting with one of the Midwives from the OB/GYN office. I have so many questions and concerns that I typed out two pages to remember what to ask. As soon as I can remind myself to update the blog I will be back:)

All looks good under the hood

I am finally getting around to filling in the gap from last week. My 6 week ultrasound went well. My husband and I were super anxious about the possibility of hearing a heartbeat. Instead were able to see one! One little lima bean flashed up on the screen and was pumping away, it was just unbelievable. My husband was holding my hand the entire time. We squeezed each other simutaneously and the tears just welled up.

Everything is measuring in as should be and I will return for my 8 week follow up in a week and a half. I then believe I graduate from the IVF group. It will be a bittersweet departing. I will be under the care of an MFM group and am delighted that I already have several appointments on the books. I personally know several of the docs in this perinatal group so I feel like I already have an advantage in building a relationshop.

I have to keep reminding myself that I have to take each day as it comes and it is still very early so anything can happen. Each morning I get up and check out my belly in the mirror, nothing new to report. I still look the same. However this morning as I did my routine and looked down at my non-existent belly I threw up on my feet. I guess the morning sickness may be setting in.